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I’m just unsure is it the time for me to go forward, forget my past, not looking back, and live my new life…

the real new life has start

everything has changed a lot in my life, and I’m trying to enjoy them. Here, I have too big responsibility to study well. Sometimes it just feel so hard for me and I almost wanted to cry (but I’m trying not to and of course I can!). I just have to study more and more than other people, to get the best for my life. This is my own goal actually, because I’m just remember the purpose of going here. I did not want to disappointed my parents.

last week, I was sick and I almost unable to go to school, but in the end I decided to go, so I came late to school. As I arrived there, the security asked me to stand for 30 minute in front of the school, even though I’ve told him I was sick. Then I protested and went to see my teacher. fortunately, they were so kind to me. In the afternoon I am not getting better and my teacher bring me to hospital. my form teacher is so nice! I am so lucky!

Luckily I went to school, if not I have to go to the doctor ON MY OWN! and I don’t know where the doctor is. This hostel is very very unthoughtful. I even have to bought my own lunch! I had to rest a lot but they did not help me.

When I am walking alone to school at that morning, I called my mom and dad, and at that time I just remember how was my life previously in Jakarta, and every time I remember it, I feel like I wanted to cry. I really miss them at that time. I love mom and dad. I miss you a lot!

long time no post, I’m back…

seems like too long time after my last post… yeah, I am quite busy and my life change too much..,
now, something always comes into my mind…
love… I think I am thinking about this thing too much! hahahahaha
when you love someone, you might do anything for the one you love, and your mind is full of him or her, and you might even think that you will love nobody else but him/her. But what will you do when you find out that he/she does not love you? some people said you must keep on loving him/her, but how if it takes months, or even years?? Will you stay this way? forever?
Trying to love someone unconditionally sounds so beautiful, so impossible for me… we have our own live and we have people around us. Every second I think of this, is there “true love”? what is “soul mate”? how do we know if someone is our soul mate???

confused…

recently, I fell confused…
I’m confused about what truly a relationship means, in our early age… I don’t know what for is it, but I just feel happy to have someone to share while in a relationship, someone that will not go away suddenly (may be), though in the end, it will hurt me (usually)…
Then, what is a serious relationship? What for, in this age?
I’d love if anyone could answer or may be share something about this thing…